Since listening to a Moody Radio program in which Christine Wyrtzen discusses the idea of letting God write our stories (see www.moodyradio.org/brd_ProgramDetail.aspx?id=46522 ), I have been giving the matter thought.
And this is what I find--I am all too eager to niggle the pen in His hand. And so the ink flies, blotting my soul with discontent and worry, turning skylights to ceilings with a thousand finger smudges. It's not like I can really wrestle the pen away from Him, but I wonder if He lets me shake it around until the futility of the motion finally overwhelms me.
But what if I choose the better way? What if I abandon myself to His plot line, leaning into my day as I trust the writing of a master? What if I open my computer to start typing and am neither buoyed by the idea of creating an acclaimed piece of literature nor concerned with whether I feel like writing or not? What if, instead, I simply write, knowing this is the first step in a way God gives me to go, anticipating that He will meet me here and that the next word, the next sentence, the next chapter will lead somewhere--good?
I want to find out. And, in the words of a favorite sermon response, "Help me, Lord!"
I like this!!!
ReplyDeleteGlad you enjoyed it, Kattyrae!
ReplyDelete"Help me Lord"--O Yeah! This actually speaks to my life right now...so I'm very glad that you wrote it. I really like the line "What if I abandon myself to His plot line, leaning into my day as I trust the writing of a master". I think that this can be the larger story of our lives as well--suppose that maybe you meant that anyway:) I think that part of what I need to do is focus more on the bigness of God and not try to guide my life with my puny imaginings. And--to remember to see my life in the context of His big story.
ReplyDeleteThis needs to be a poem, I think! Lovely imagery creating profound -- yet simple -- thought.
ReplyDeleteElizabeth,thanks for the reminder about our lives being part of God's huge story! And um hmm, I did mean this about life, too, not just writing.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard, isn't it, to give up "puny imaginings" for God's greater adventure?
alaiyo, ever since you left your comment I've been thinking of writing that poem. Haven't got up the gumption yet, though :)
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